i was away because....

ok that will b a real coming back hello, my last months were a mess but luckily nice mess!!
i've got engaged!! i know its so surprising , i didnt even see it coming but it happened in 4th of august :)

talking abt sudden changing in ur life!! ya its the biggest for me, either u like it or not acctually either I like it or not i needed to set back! i was always talking abt stability and here it is!

serious relationship; i can hardly sleep, but somehow it always ended happily the sums abt it :) im now engaged to the first and the only guy who i had a serious relationship with ever in my life! an its amazing how ur life is a circle and oneday you will never help noticing that its all connecting together perfectly, ull find all the answers abt the wiered stuff just in a minute..... and mr perfect is always around the corner!!
somehow he showed up again full of memories and true love... and a knee proposal... girls cant say no to that :p what a great guy i have :)

so here i am , clear again.... its like i neglected my brain for a while!!! u cant turn into dump in few months.. right?? hehehe

so c u around ... luv u all :)

helllloooooz

that was long time ago... when i clicked on "creat a new post"..
so...i miss u wedad,bashar,darwish,ala'a,7amze and omar!! omar? i was missing u all the time ya3ni abel ma abtel posting and after hehe...illi ho

im back guyz.. im not sure what im gonna write in my next posts other than complaining :D but i realized that this blog is sth that i have to keep!

luv! acctually big LUV!
ramadan kareeeem

sth new,sth sweet,sth bad

finally i get a job......
yes..... and ill stop nagging and complaining abt not having a job and doing nothing and the silly girl that i was talking abt :) because of all the extra time i had.....
anyway i was born free ...now im expensive!!
today was my first training day at "umniah" telecom company, ill b in the custumer care stuff and im really happy abt it.. and for my fans as a politician its just a step in my way ill continue politics until i die......

the sweetest thing that happened to me was in the second interview in the head quarter "umniha" when i was going to meet a man called sami jarrar...some guy took me up where sami jarrar was waiting for me.. in my way to him which is in the elevator i met someone and we talked abt me he asked me why im here w sho daraset and he smiled in a warm way and wished me luck when i left the elevator, i loved how nice he was with me he made me very comfortable...then the guy told me that i was talking to "michael dager" the owner.. i smiled wide.... im lucky today!! no doubt!!

im at internet cafe because my computer mabre7 faga3 w tala3 da5ne!! "keefak ya ala'a??" and im sleeping 3la farshe in a pink room which smells like dhan!! renewing

please change it!

by the way.... did u ever check jordan uni web site??

ilsar7 il3elmi ilawal fil ilordon have a web site that sucks!! check the design and the colors... plz if anybody is taking place in doing these things in jordan uni is reading this.... guess what?? change it!!
my beloved university is much better than this :(!!!!

www.ju.edu.jo


sho guyz? what do u think??

u dont have to read this (2)

i still think im too young.. not mature enough..... u know that feeling?
i mean sometimes i think, god.... this life is too hard..but still i keep trying and trying,with a smile, i promise, but the very inside of me is frightend..and thats also mayb... bcoz i fear failure and i cant accept it....im that kind of ppl who can always c the empty half of the galss...still im cheerful, always smiling and i can make anybody who share time with me so happy,that kind of person who can create the party now!..... but something is always hidden inside me.

i dont know regret, mayb thats why i feel like im not moving forword coz from time to another u have to look back and check things once more to learn....... from the other side, this not looking back thing gave me so much strength to keep my very first principals that i have and never let them go , but sometimes i look arround and i feel like im one of my kind, not in a good way or bad either, its just im standing alone here in no where..holding my old stuff, my first personality that i once discovered, not able and refusing to b changed, that i love myself the way i am, but sometimes it doesnt work, especially the honesty part_even when i like some guy_ ill just say it, im just that very nice person i mean over nice, that ppl will think im mad or, u know, other bad stuff mayb, and its not abt if u care or not as i dont, but u can c it in others eyes, whatever was the look....and yes i admit it... i just cant take things easy, its also becoz i believe; if u start to take things _that happened to u or things that u care abt_ easy ull loose ur sensibilty in this solid world, i love me being sensetive and romantic and passionate almost abt every thing in my life, but it seems it doesnt work anymore, as i think im balanced between being romantic and realistic ,which sometimes i just do it for things sake, i still can feel that im loosing sensibility and tenderness..its just how i think the world should b going..

but wallah its too much trouble coz when im in love im too deeply madly in love, when i believe in an idea ill b dying for it,when i make friends i over trust them..its just how i am....

ya i may seem silly for some of u as u may say:" hey girl get real",but i know that theres many ppl who r like me and they r abt to go crazy bcoz of it.....

and by the way.. im ok :) its just i feel like "w ba3deeen?"

ألف ليلة و ليلة

بلغني أيها الملك السعيد.....ذو الرأي ا لرشيد
أنني حدثتك عن بلاد سعيدة ,لا زالت تعاني من اضطرابات عديدة,رغم المحاولات الجديدة لتصحيح أوضاعها الداخلية....و في ذلك دافع ,كبير للحد من أي تدخلات خارجية, قد تمس بالأطر السيادية.......فهذه البلاد يا مولاي لطالما اتسمت بالحيادية و التزمت بكافة المعايير الدولية,حفاظا على نفسها من الأهوال والحروب الاجبارية....الواقعة باستمرار, على حدودها الاقليمية.

الا أن يا مولاي......وفي تلك الأزمان, ما كان شيء ليمنع عالمية القرار,ولا حتى عمن يطالب بالاستقرار... فالمنطقة ببساطة محكومة بعدم الاستقرار....فما كان من جماعة الثوار الا أن نجحوا في تمرير الانفجار,فقلبوا الأفكار... وقلبوا الطاولة على رؤوس أصحاب القرار.....فمرت لحظات عصيبة من الانتظار
اضطربت العامة
وبالرغم من التطمينات الكثيرة....الا أن شيئا محسوسا تغير,نظام هادئ كان سائدا قد تعكر,وعالم بأسره بدأ يتفكر......هل بدأنا نتحرر؟ أم أن سجننا في أوطاننا سيتكرر؟

وفي شأن آخر يا مولاي....سمع في تلك الأيام عن امبراطورية صغيرة, مدعومة من امبراطورية كبيرة,بعثت برسالة خطيرة فيها حديث عن أوطان بديلة و الغاء لسيطرة القبيلة في غضون سنوات قليلة...وتسارعت الأنفاس,الا أن كل ذلك لا يقاس,فالاعتذارات وكأنها أزالت جدية المساس...فسكتت العامة وسكت الحراس,و قالت الدهماء....في السياسية....كل شيء مجاز

واتسعت الرقعة يا مولاي...وكأن الخلل في هذه البلاد يزحف

فوصل الى بيت المال,حيث رؤوس الأموال تدبر معظم الأحوال

انها بلاد صغيرة,في منطقة تعتبر على المحك خطيرة...فلا تتعجب ان كانت مصائب عابرة,يمكن ان تحولها الى بلاد غابرة.... وتشتد الظروف,وكأنه لم يبقى سوى استقبال الضيوف,حاملين معهم آخر الحروف.....في رواية لا تصدق ,عن وباء محقق, تحمله و تنقله الطيور,حتى و ان تم طبخها في القدور

أحزنت يا مولاي؟ بماذا تفكر؟

أن توالت المصائب على بلد بعيد كل البعد عن اختلاق المصائب؟ و كأن استهدافا سلط عليها؟

يا مولاي..... انها أدوار تتوالى أصوات تتعالى,لقمع كل رأس يمتد وأي ساعد يشتد ,لبناء أفضل غد ,لأن امبراطورية غبية, أنشأتها الصدفة تمتد, و تعين تجمع قبائل الخزر في وسط منطقة الخطر على تنفيذ الوعد المنتظر

مولاي...أدركنا الصباح

و سكتت شهرزاد عن الكلام المباح